No One Is Special

If you

16585600331_aee67eed1a_oI thought today I would share a little about myself. This is a sliver of the intro to the Ebook I’m  writing and it’s very personal. Truth: I’m a little uncomfortable sharing it but I’m still sharing it. Why am I sharing it then? 

I hear others say “Go with your gut feeling”  quite a bit and most of the time that’s shitty advice. If went with my gut feeling I would do nothing, go now where and be nothing.

 

I don’t have the right to tell you what to do. If you want, follow your gut, but for me? I’m going to do the complete opposite.

 

 

I say don’t go with your gut feeling. Do what scares you. Find what you’re afraid of and punch it in the face!

Excerpt from my ebook

A little about me.

Two years ago I was homeless. I was sleeping in a friends basement. It was a pretty low time in my life.
 I considered killing myself.
 One day I drive up into the mountains, parked my car and walked over to the edge of a cliff.   

 tumblr_ntqu8fclRi1sqjuy6o4_1280I didn’t feel I had much to live for and somewhere years ago I’d lost the fear of dying so I walked over and looked down.
  The drop was at least 200 feet. I put one foot out started the process of ending my life.  One more step and it would be over.

Then….

 I had a thought.  It was my three children. I saw their future selves. I saw my daughter Laurelei at her wedding and I wasn’t there to give her away. I saw my son Riley at his graduation and I saw his wonderful smile, but I wasn’t there. I saw my son Jasper getting in a fight and needing someone to clean his cut and it wasn’t me. I was gone. I was dead.

I stepped back and fell down on the rock. I cried. What the fuck had happened to me?  I’d lost hope. I’d lost everything. How did I get to suck a low place?
That was the moment when things started to change.
I made a decision. Full accountability. Higher standards. I would make my life worth living again.

missoula-photo-school copy 2More than anything  I would be there for those things. Maybe I would be late, but I would be there.

 My children are my reason for everything I do. 

 

I’ve had my fair share of struggles. I point out later that even thought I’ve had struggles they don’t stop me from reaching my goals.

One thing  I realized just in the last year is I am not special. I am a normal person. I am just like you. I have problems and I deal with them.

Some people like to share their problems.  I think they probably enjoy the attention.  I don’t. If you took everyone in the entire world who have faced major problems and put them into one room everyone one in the world would be in that room.

funny-logic-4I don’t want attention but in a world where attention means success? What do you do? I am still figuring out this fucked up paradox. I wonder if there is even an answer.

Do you know the answer?  If you do let’s talk.

 

 

On a lighter note! Haha!

 I’m throwing a photo walk!

Photo walk Meet up: March 12th at 10am

Location: City Creek Center at the Sky bridge

Bring your camera!

And

I have two workshops that you can join right now! The Intimate Portrait Workshop or The Basic Workshop for beginners.

Now is a great time to message me about enrolling in one of the workshops that I’m teaching. Ikonrepublik@yahoo.com

In the Middle of April they will cost more!

Hey! Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.  Visit my IG to see more of my work. I also sell art on Artfinder.

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Ikon Republik- I am a photographer based in Salt Lake City Utah.

I am the founder of VEGA Magazine. I like to write. I like to play guitar. Most of the time my life is pretty awesome. I offer photo sessions and I teach personal photography lessons.  

 

Ikonrepublik@yahoo.com just in case you missed it before. 

Please give me about 1 day to respond.🙂(I currently check my email once a day!)

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